I hate myself, but won't cut or kill myself. Why may you ask? Because I know that there is something in the future that I would love , but if I kill myself I won't be able to see that moment. There always is something good in your life, wether it was in the past, if it happens today or if it happens some time in the future. Everyone will have this moment and I mean EVERYONE. So why focus on all the bad things when you can focus on the good things.